The Dawn of a New Era

Stayed up early this morning to watch the GE2011 results. Mixed feelings. Its sad to say goodbye to the ministers who have served my area for more than 1o plus years. It is through no fault of him that he lost. Blame it on the system. He did well, fought very hard and has accepted the choices the people made. Thank you and your team.

On the other hand, I’m excited to see what the new team can bring us. I hope they don’t disappoint us. Don’t give us empty promises. Action speaks louder than words.

Your Birthday

Its your birthday today.

I wished you on MSN this morning.

You totally ignored me.

Why have we become like this?

My heart stopped.

Today in Pictures

Stuff to accompany on lonely weekends ….

Relieve Stress

I was reading last night 晚报 and read that two famous stars have been arrested for taking drugs. There are already many reports recently that Taiwanese artists took drugs either for stress relieve or just for the fun of it. And it makes me wonder why these artists do drugs? I can understand the stress they have to go through in the entertainment industry but surely there are many ways to relieve stress.

I have been rather 烦 lately. Alot of things on my mind. Alot of things I couldn’t understand. Alot of things I over analysed. All these caused many sleepless nights. My body was tired but my mind was super active, keep thinking, keep analysing. I have to take on flu pills to make myself drowsy and force my mind to rest. I didn’t want to do it this way, to keep my stress away, but I have no other ways to help me out. I know it is not right to do so. So I have been careful not to over rely on it. I no longer need the flu pills on many nights already. And I hope to keep it this way.

Lord, I know you will watch over me.

爱的感觉

爱的感觉，总是在一开始觉得很甜蜜，
总觉得多一个人陪、多一个人帮你分担，
你终於不再孤单了，至少有一个人想著你、恋著你，
不论做什么事情，
只要能一起，就是好的，
但是慢慢的，随著彼此的认识愈深，
你开始发现了对方的缺点，
於是问题一个接著一个发生，
你开始烦、累，甚至想要逃避，
有人说爱情就像在捡石头，
总想捡到一个适合自己的，
但是你又如何知道什么时候能够捡到呢？

Forgotten?

I have forgotten how to blog.

I missed my blog.

One year on and I’m still running in circles.

When will I come out from the circle?

iPhone Cake

My birthday is around the corner … can I have this please?

Feeling Down

I don’t know why but I have been feeling very down lately. Nothing can excites me even shopping! I haven’t been that social butterfly my friends thinks I am. I haven’t been opening up. I haven’t been light hearted even tho I said I want to make change this year. I rather stay at home and rot. I don’t know what triggered this emotion in me. And I don’t like it.

Self-Torture

For the past 1.5 years, I have living in such a sedentary life that weight just piled up on my body. Suddenly I am at least 3-4kgs heavier. I was in self-denial for a while, thinking its part of growing old. Ha Ha Ha. But it cannot be self-denial anymore when I look at the photos I took recently and saw a lump at the tummy. My GOD! *HORROS*

With the determination of living a new life in 2010, I did the unthinkable. I joined a gym. Fitness First is the best choice as there is one branch each near my workplace and home. There is absolutely no excuses not to go to the gym. Afterall, I paid $135 per month, just to run on the treadmill and attend some classes. I even bought a new pair of New Balance Running shoes to “celebrate” it. Hee Hee.

Went for my first run in FF on last Sat. After 1.5 years of non-exercise, it sure feels good to be able to sweat it out. 30 mins is all I can take. And now for the 2 days I sufferred. Walking like an old woman, I can’t feel my legs anymore. The whole body is aching like shit. And yet I have to pretend I can take it. Ha Ha Ha.

Quite determined to exercise at least 3 times a week (twice on a weekday and 1 on weekend) to fully utilise the $135 I’m paying every month. Also, quite determined to at least participate in 2 running race this year. Am aiming for the Shape Run in Jul 10 and Great Eastern Woman 10k Run in Oct 10.

Anyone keen to join me?

The Coming Back Post?

Time flies so fast. I have not been blogging for almost 8 months. My last post stands in July 2009. Fast forward. We are now in February 2010. So much things happened in these 8 months that I do not know where to start.

2009 is a very exhausting and tiring year for me. I was particularly burn out. My life was turned upside down. I was constantly tired – both mentally and physically. I shall not dwell too much what happened. I don’t want to remember the bad memories.

2010 starts with a new life new beginning. I finally left the stressful & miserable job and got myself a new job in one of the top company in Singapore. I dare not say I like this new job very much as I’m only in the job for a month. So far so good. Having left the mind-exhausting  job, I wanted to slow down my career and take life slowly. I want to wake up, looking forward to a less stressful job in the morning and able to come back on time or have more time for social activities at the end of the work day.

2010 also starts my new life as a single & available woman. I put behind a love life full of lies and deceit. I can only say perhaps I’m too navie when love comes in. I have learnt my lessons. I’m scared of being in love again. Going into my mid-30s, my thinking about love has changed. I don’t know whether I can trust men again. I don’t know whether I can believe in love again. I used to dream about finding someone I love and starts a happy family together. I no longer has that dream. What is marriage? What is happy family? What is true love?

2010 also starts my new life with new friendships. Made a few new gal pals where we share common things. They helped me pull thru the last 3 months of 2009. Without them, I won’t be able to stand on my feet so quickly. Without them, I won’t be able to change my perspective in certain things and see things differently. I think we can live without love, but we can’t live without true friends.

I wish I can say I am happy in my new life now. With 1.5 months over in 2010, I do experience happiness and saddness at the same time. I’m still trying not to think about the past. I’m still trying to stay positive. I’m still trying to get out of the mild depression I had.

I’m still trying very hard ~~~

From Straight to Curls

For the past 20 years of my life, I have been spotting the same straight and rebonded hair. The only difference is the lenght; either short above the shoulder or long way past the shoulder.

When I reached my 3x birthday, I decided a change is needed. It was either a short bob that ends at the neck area or big wave curls. And the latter is the choice.

The last perm I did was when I was 12 years old (I think!). I cried through the whole process. The perm made me look like an auntie. Everyone laugh at me when I went back to school with the “pong pong” head. I washed my hair everyday, hoping it will miraclously become straight the next day. It never happened until I went to cut it one month later.

20 years later, with advanced technology, my head no longer become “pong pong” liao. I did a digital perm at the lower half and touch-up my rebonded hair at the crown. I love my curls. The man loves love it too. He said now I look like my age and more 女人味。

In the past, when I had my straight rebonded hair, hawkers uncle/aunties would still call me 小妹, especially if I have my glasses on and wearing home clothes. Lucky so far, no one has called me auntie ………. yet!

I have not always been adventrous when it comes to my hair style. It took me 20 years to have the courage to change my look. The next step is to have the courage to colour the whole head. I have done streaks of highlights before but never colour the whole head. I hope it won’t take me another 20 years to do that. Guess with the increasing number of white hair showing up, it will be soon to change my hair colour.

爷爷和孙妞的话

餐桌上摆放了一碗汤。

爷爷问孙妞：恩恩，要喝汤吗？

孙妞回答：要。

爷爷说：汤很烧，等一下才喝。

孙妞说：烧就吹咯。

孙妞的回答让我们哈哈大笑。

Out of Blogging Action

As you can see, I have not been updating this blog for more than a month. Reason being, I have found new hobbies from facebook —–> games! The past one month saw me logging to facebook everyday playing games. It is so addictive. The games I’m playing right now are:

1. Happy Farm

Happy Farm

2. Pet Society

Pet Society

3. Restaurant City

Restaurant City

I’m still slowly climbing the games level. So I probably won’t be spending time blogging. There’s nothing much to blog also. I will only updates when there are new developments/things in my life. I will continue to read my regular blogs though.

That’s The Way It Should Be

I have not been talking/blogging about the Aware saga all this while. I did not discuss this among the colleagues/friends either. It’s not that I don’t care but I’m just afraid that once I start  blogging about it, I cannot control the anger I felt towards the ex-new committe. I only try to follow the sagas and the exchange of accusations between the old vs ex-new on the newspapers, TV (CNA).

I’m glad that it is finally over and they (the new (old) team) is able to continue what should Aware stands for. I’m glad to know that we, Singaporeans woman cares and are able to support and unite together when we felt that things are not right.

The Deadly Flu

With more and more (suspected/confirmed) cases from Asia, the office sent out an email to everyone informing that temperature taking will be implemented from Monday onwards.

Oh my ….. the 2003 nightmare is here …….